not goin church today..

actually i didn't want to go already as i wanted to study but i knew i would be stopped by my mum and force to go so i juz changed my mind n decided to go..

juz 15 mins ago mum came in n i wasn't ready to go yet she asked if can go already i said i needed to bath..then she said u noe very well wad time we normally leave.. then i didn't say anything so i was trying to move cos i sat in the same position for to long n was having cramps..then suddenly she said u make the decision urselve it's between u and God..oh well since she didn't want to be late(not tt i wan oso la) i juz said i dun go..then she juz walked off..

i noe tt disappointed her and i noe as much as anyone tt without God i cannot go far but when i worship God must it only be in church? can it be at home sitting quietly in my room thinking of his goodness n grace and confessing with my mouth? well i guess she also cannot have the right to be upset with me because she made me choose..

i've been a quite a b**** this week..sorry peeps who i have threw my tantrum on or went with m demands..

First day of exam

wasn't that bad..lol maybe i can get my A1 chinese(yeah right) lol oh well english was ok, chi was easier then mids..but i was still frantically flipping through the dictionary looking for words! hahaha Thank God the paper was easy and Thank God i'm not sitting behind MALINA BECAUSE she makes me feel stress sometimes..lol she's a kanchiong spider!!! LOL

many more days of studying or u can say torment?Pray for me pls!haha

Cause he's bittersweet

He knocks me off of my feet

And i can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

He's a mystery

He's too much for me

But I keep coming back for more

He's just the guy i'm looking for

extracted from bernice's blog =)

feeling almost the same way as her...-sighs-

today was quite alright. usual stuff u noe. recess was cool cos there were so little pple!! haha on the way back to class saw pig n i gave a squeaky 'pig' squeal.lol Mdm peh wasn't here amazingly i wrote my letter writing real fast.3 cheers for tt! =) haha after sch suppose to cab home but went for lunch at Delifrance.had a long long laugh abt "the sounds geraldine makes"..CONTAGIOUS i really really think so or must say? lol

anyway tt's beside the point. i'm hearing so much stuff abt certain sec 2's n all n i was juz thinking..when i was sec 2 was i like them? oh gosh i dunno n i hope i wasn't.haha

Hw for the week:

Maths-Xinmin sec paper1

-SACSS paper 2

Physics-BNS mid year paper

-Wb unit 3.4 (half-way done )

SS-Temasek paper SBQ & SEQ ALL (!@#$%^&*@$%&^)

Bio-Pioneer sec paper

Eng-Practice passage 1

tt's alot for the WEEKEND. pathetic 2 days.

Conclusion:

education kills your brain cells it makes u PMS more and it makes ur own wrist slit itself

can I be one of the hw instead pls?

Been feeling all crazy inside of me i think it's the time of the month.Soon i suppose.

vomitted on monday went home half way..had some viral gastric thing and so stomach was hurting like nobody's business..had to control my diet..well since i'm pretty fine now dun wanna think abt tt..haha

today was pretty cool..english was boring as usual..with Miss Tan reading directly off from the TB..haha wad can i say abt tt? lol

anyway ya recess some samantha girl from sec 2/4 (i think) was practically staring at the whole group of us..i must say she is daring but sorry i really hate tt guts of hers..she can try to deny or say who say i was staring at u all and all tt shit but pls..there were 8 of us there 1 of You staring and unfortunately her dear fren has given her away by msging me and asking me who we were staring at..and worst question to ask...WHY?

anyway RE was like a slacking time and bio was slping time and SS was stoning/laughing time. NOW u noe how much i love SCHOOL!!juz couldn't get my brain to work!! DAMMM..haha anyway i caught Fiona staring at "naked" man at the canal!! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

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a day to remember =)

a secret between me & you & you

haha

i have no right to judge.

i have no right to love.

i forgot the feeling of loving someone.

forgive me.

didn't go to sch today..actually woke up late but then decided to go to the doc. and ya got my antibiotics..how sad..need to take it medicine..

exams r coming..feeling half here half there..dun like tt feeling..like u noe u r suppose to study but there seems to be so many other things u wan to do..and then u dunno where to start..cos u feel like u did all ur revision already but then again that is purely complacency..sounds retarded but ya tt's how i feel..i'm trying to trust and surrender and NOT worry..but somehow i dunno what i'm doing..GOD! what m i doing? is this the phase in life where u juz think abt this n that and this n that and u find urselve getting no where but back to sq one..I must agree that God has been to gracious to me..but have i become that perfectionist that cannot accept failure? i dunno..

alrights REALLY gonna hit the books now..

Mid years are in 3 weeks...time to really study study study...

NERD ALERT!

Emo shit day for me!