went town shop for my stuff...not bad la..

bloody pissed off to bloody hell blog!

whoever u r anonymous!! i dun give a shit abt who u like or wadeva! who u like is not my problem! n dun make ur f***ing problem become my problem..cos i dun give a DAMMM abt u!! stop being so childish la pls! dunch u hav betta things to do then tag in pple's blog! damm annoying pls! i REALLY DUN GIVE A DAMMM abt whether the person u like likes me or wadeva...MORE EVER...do u even noe who i like? wad if the person i like isn't the person u like!? gosh! who do u think u r? some bloody hell big shot? my gosh!! pls la...u r NOT! NEITHER m i!! wad the hell! u juz had to bloody hell spoil my nite la! with all this stupid comment of urs! pls la go find betta things to do!! stop being a back stabber la! do u really think it's a joy! not even close!! one day u'll find urselve with no frens if u continue to be like tt...oh gosh! y do i even bother!!!

i think i was being dumb to think tt u were quite sweet! the fact is tt u r juz not who u seem to be! C'mon get real! mayb i'm juz the one being dumb! all i can do now is blame it on myself for not seeing wad i shld hav seen! toking abt the anonymous person!

Sec 4 Camp

it was really sucky ESpecially the First Day!! it really din start off well..early in the morning the prefects try to like hav morning energizers but it was really screwed up...haha kindda dumb! then some classes had theory in the hall BUT everyone was like slping n the sec 1's were like having alot of fun so everyone was like groaning abt y we can't our camp be like theirs!! haha

LUCKY 2nd day was more fun....haha we were doin all the moutain climbing things which were really fun...haha was laughing abt everything n all..haha then there was one kelly was like suppose to belay me..haha then i can choose to but or dun put my whole weight..haha so i was being evil n i put my whole weight...hahaha super funny!! she was like screaming away! haha prussiking n abseiling was even more fun! haha got this guy everyone was goin gooo gooo over him but there was really nothing special abt him...i juz dun see the point...haha then after tt was dissmissed so went to help set up the sec 1's camp fire n all..haha

Sec 1's Campfire

hmmm it was quite screwed cos of the MC's! they were like mono tone...gosh...y they were MC's COS they needed to pass their public speaking..this is a campfire! not public speaking! gosh!haha then i was like asking nic abt it but she was like becca ok i forgot wad she said haha but i was kindda complaning...haha so campfire was really good BUT they were over enthu!! haha n the items were really good...hmm i realize the sec 1's all very into dancing...haha talented bunch of pple..haha not bad not bad..haha n i'm damm happy cos 1 class use my cheer!!! haha me n pat stayed over wah 12 midnight the sec 1's still toking away not slping!haha i was like super tired already n my voice was like oso goin liaoz..haha but had to keep the sec 1's quiet...haha then went to slp...haha in the morning 1/5 was like telling me alot of things...haha *AHEM*

3rd day for sec 4 camp...hmmm learning styles...not tt bad..haha at least DAVID was the one speaking to us..haha he's damm cute pls!! haha was like beoing him frm the side view...haha

went home then slp slp slp...haha then woke up at 8 plus for dinner..ahaha last nite blogger was down MSN was dw too..haha lousy! haha s much hw to do sia..CNY comming..yay! got money!!! hahaha

WE WON!!! SAC VS STC...3-2...close scores...close games...haha feel so happy manx...these few days hav been my happy days...haha gd arh...

this morning met sister jo n all the sec 1 chair pple...tml got to come up with all the cheers liaoz..haha then need to teach them n then ya lor..haha n me n pat r goin to the campfire!!haha not bad not bad..lol then we will be staying over for one day...haha so NOW camp is more meaningful! lol...hmmm i feel so proud of my cheers manz...haha

hope pb will use my cheer..haha confirm the instructors will like one lor..lol..n i bet when the sec 3's come back they will be singing all the camps songs n saying all the cheers..haha so it will be dammm funny...haha

sat might be goin blading...wheee...haha long time neva blade..haha hope i dun break a leg or arm! hahaha

ok la need to help some alien to do his blog music...CIAOZ!

FINALLY bought my adidas tennis shoe!!! yay!!! haha but then no more red cos old design so bought baby blue...yup..

today was ok was really attentive during service..haha but last part was really cannot focus liaoz...haha hmmm CM was quite a rough time..had to do praise n worship n michy was not there...so was kindda nervous dunno wad to say to the kids n all...yup then tution...haha today surprisingly was really interested in tution...haha so was really fast with ting xie...then went back church saw pple playing tennis against the wall then test their racket..haha not bad lor...haha

went queensway bought shoe n shoe bag..then went home jog for abt 1 hr...haha then was lock outside my hse for half an hour..hahaha my mum was upstairs n she could not hear the door bell..haha so had to go eastpoint n borrow phone frm winnie's shop...yup...

came home n now i'm here...aha haven't bath yet though..haha alright goin to bath now...tml got match against STC i think...yups...

Cheryl: if u r reading this...haha cos i'm lazy to msg u...lol haha erh is anyone gonna photocopy the fixtures??

ANDY RODDICK!!!!!!! 6-2, 6-2, 7-5....unbelievable scores!!! his down the lines were sooooooo fantastic i tell u!! RODDICK ROCKS!!! haha today saw him playing against Melzer 32 seeded...both were as good..haha but too bad Roddick 2nd seeded won!!! yay!!! haha dammm happy...haha i think roddick is like super cool la!! haha

haven't seen my favourite player...JUSTINE HENIN-HARDENE!! oh my!! i tell u this women is even more fantastic!! haha her back hands r poweful man!! ahaha n her stokes r like so nice..hahahaha but i hav yet to see her play for quite a long time...disappointing man!! she withdraw frm the australian open...y? bcos she has a micro fracture of right knee...sad news manx...ARGG my star player...cannot see her play for awhile...damm!!! haha

Today also saw Venus williams playing..she really deprove alot manx..compared to her sister...wah..BIG difference...haha

k k enough of tennis...haha got to slp..nites!!!

married

i'm came specially here to announce tt......

I'M MARRIED!!!!!

so exciting(not)!!! well i'm having my first child n it will be due...hmmm abt early october....haha ya...so exciting!! n then next year me n my 'husband' decided to hav another one oso...haha n it would be our 2nd...whee...haha

well i noe it doesn't make sense but well...my husbands name is.....BOOKS!! haha n my first child which i hav to go through 9 months of pain n the first child's name is N'LEVEL!! haha n my 2nd child's name is O'LEVEL!!! haha get the pic?? dun get it then too bad...haha

got sec 1 auditions tml...ciaoz...time to spent quality time with my husband...hehe

friday friday i love fridays!!! it's a friday!!! lalalala do u noe how happy i m!? hahaha

in the morning was suppose to be early but i was late..haha oh well..had fun toking to mel n pb then mel was like i show u something then i told her i dun wan to see...haha in the end it was something nice la..haha the nike wristbacnd...haha...ok..haha dots..haha i got the blue one! haha ok wadeva!

oh well sch was ok...haha then ya...haha after sch was at the radio station...haha then was like playing n dancing to the songs..haha oh well..then some bananas juz had to put ice in my back..haha then gloria yan myers sharp had to kick my leg bone n it was like 'dented'..haha all i did was like kick her butt n not say very hard oso n not pain one lor..haha her one is like super pain like then she bought me a cup of ice n i played n all then i attack the bananas with it n glad was one of them n i poured the whole cup of ice on her cos she attack me n she bloody hell squeeze my neck n now it's dammmmm pain! n i drop my wallet n hairband bcos it was pain...haha

mel n pb juz had to take my stuff on the floor n ran away with it! great job!! chase them around sch n finally got it back juz grab some snacks to eat n rush off to training..haha

training was quite ok...had sec 1 cca orientation..haha had like 70 pple signing up..haha then we also went around to ask pple to join...haha oh well..haha later got no voice already..haha then train abit more then later pack up then mel suddenly addicted to my banana song! haha so i thought her then we started doin retarded actions..haha

help abit with the banner n all then went to eat dinner with bballers..felt so extra..haha but lucky pb sit with me in another table..haha then ya we were like laughing n all..haha oh well..haha went 7 11 buy jelli beans then saw shane! haha long time neva see him..haha

reach home abt 9 bah...haha

i still thinking if i shld go cycling tml...shld i? haha

juz came home frm ice-cream!! whee...haha had ice-cream n waffle n float..hahaha yum yum...tt's my lunch! lol

sch was alright yesterday n today..haha n so was traning..haha it was much betta then last week...haha i'm super happy abt tt...haha oh well...i guess aS long as there is tt small glimpse of hope dun give up..haha ya...oh well..

last nite i came home abt 7 plus then started hw at 9 plus..haha din manage to complete it...haha somemore i stayed up until abt 11 plus then i had to go slp cos TODAY had morning runs...haha n my mum help me to do abit of my social studies BUT in the end went sch copy n guess wad..haha she din wan it..haha so tt's good!! haha cos like tt i wouldn't feel so bad!!haha

anyway in the morning i woke up abit late...haha then ya went to sch abit late...haha then saw aggy at the bball court while we were walking to the canteen n she gave me my flowers!! so sweet of her!! haha n i was super happy for the rest of the day!! haha then started running...haha i tell u i really din wan to sweat so i was sprinting or the first n second round..haha then coming to the end i slow dw cos can cool dw...BUT i failed to not be sweaty..haha

class was normal n all..haha after sch went dw canteen..haha saw melody...haha so i was like melody then she did something really retarded...haha so her!! haha then later she gave me jack daniels to drink!! haha it was super nice!! haha shall ask someone to get it for me next time..haha oh well then later went market with the sec 3 bballers..haha felt so extra..haha but oh well i gradutaing with them so..yup..haha

then went eastwood n ya my lunch...haha

well on the way home dearie said something abt valentine's day...hahahmm n i was thinking this year...haiz -shakes head- cannot make it..haha

gtg...got hw...ciaoz...

there's got to be more to life

no homework today EXCEPT MATHS!! hahaha oh well must hand up on thursday wad..lol hmmm SHIT SOCIAL STUDIES i've been complaining abt this since dunno when..haha my mum juz explain it to me today so i kindda understand!!! haha yay!! shall do like 2 questions later...hahaha

had morning runs today was quite ok bah...haha i think my stamina really kindda drop quite alot...haha oh well nvm slowly build it up bah...haha then as for speed still thinking of wad to do..haha ya ya..haha then after runs i tell u i went for assembly i DAMM stunt lor...my whole class disappear..haha then i was like shit!!! haha i thought they all pon class..haha scare me sia..haha but actually...they all go com. lab..hahaha got some NE quiz then go air-con room!! haha ok wadeva! haha lessons were ok except was like yawning away la but i GOT listen ok!! haha

then after sch went dwstairs then met aggy..haha she showed me the design for the pull over as in the words only..haha i tell u i burst out laughing..hahaha but after a while it look quite nice..haha damm excited abt the pull over!! haha hope i can quickly find a shop tt makes it..haha

oh well...aggy was damm nice she lend me her pull over to cover me frm the rain then went to eat lunch with cher,nic n aggy then met tiff there..haha then pat send me n aggy to simei MRT by cabby...hehe so aggy came my hse then play with the rabbit n see see pics..then recall quite some memories..haha oh well she went home i play com. then no heart to do work then felt abit tired so slept for like 15 mins? haha yeah yeah!! haha feel like a pig...haha no no i wan to be piglet!! hahaha

xixi says when you are you in love, you smile more than you usually do...well i'm in love...m i? haha but i still dun think i smile so much lei...haha but xixi say i'm always smiling...haha NOW NOW tt's a good thing!! haha thanks xixi u made my day!! haha -winks-

studies r alright...FINALLY it's a friday...been waiting for the 5 day week thingy...everything started of well in 2005 except training...

tennis...supposly it's part of my life...but...mayb i juz did this one big mistake n everything goes dw the drain...my efforts my dreams all came crashing dw juz right in front of me juz like my love life...now i see failure as a really big big blow to me...i noe everyone shld accept failing n all..YES i did accept it BUT there were more to come n it happen all in the same week...it's juz not the same as failing a test..my dreams all became untrue n i'm back to sq 1...how sick is tt? in times of trouble i try to turn n continue to trust God but it seems like a hard thing? TRUST...seems so easy to do rite? but it's harder then u think it is..but it takes time..

frm this u can see tt training din go to well for me..selection of sch team is like this week n i think Mr Tan already has in mind who is playing n i dun think i'm one of them..some pple must be thinking...wad happen to the positive becky? well i'm sorry guys...i tried hard to be tt one positive girl for this aspect...but i failed..sch team is gonna be a dream this year...i'm like the lousiest in tennis...how shit is tt? haiz...then i juz couldn't help it but to let go..i juz started crying n crying n i juz couldn't help but not to think...the thought of not being able to play with they sec 4's this year juz saddens me...SO much...haiz...my 10 rounds around wasn't good either..dun tok abt it...i push myself until i really couldn't take it..

alright..think i goin to do hw liaoz..Ciaoz!

woke up at 7.15 today..haha super late ya...then was telling my mum i dun wan to go sch but she's like i'm not goin to write letter for u...then i had no choice..haha i was late but it was raining n there were like really alot of pple late..haha so ya prefect din book! hehe...hmm then was super tired la..haha

oh well..then had lesson n everything was like kindda tired n all..haha n it was super cold in class...haha i betta get a pullover soon manx..if not i will be seriously freezing in class..haha oh well lesson went on as usual n all..then came SS..wah i tell u i was like damm scared she bad mood n all but lucky she wasn't in fact she was quite happy..haha so i was damm happy cos no scolding..haha yay!! haha then recess was like super bloody crowded...haha hmmm then after 2 days in sch like FinalLy then i saw pb n mel...lol...haha oh well..then lit was super funny with miss thannabal...haha she was like toking abt offences n dunno wad finding her husband n all super funny...lol

n finally the day i look forward for...END OF SCH! hehe...well went justine hse...super nice..haha i was quite fasinated by the fish pond..lol then we were doin hw n i was like really super tired..haha so i decided to slp..i wanted to slp for 15 mins but then i think i slept for 1 hr plus..haha then woke up do finish my bio ws then ya went home..haha

is it good to feel the way i'm feeling when it is only the 3rd day of sch? hmm m i expecting really to much frm myself tt i'm beginning to feel stress up? haiz..i think all the sec 4's r feeling the same...hmm abt meeting teacher's expectations..haiz..well mayb i wouldn't feel the way i m after a while bah...haiz...

jan 26-28 is like there will be no lessons n all..haha yay!! the sec 1's get to hav a camp in sch...the sec 2's get to hav a camp in singapore outside sch!! N the sec 3's..they get to go JB! shit u noe...n wad abt the sec 4's? wad nonsense play games in SCH!?!? wad the hell!!

tml got training! yay!! relieve stress!! haha oh well then betta get goin with my homework..no time to slack...

feeling super sick manx...wad a good year..stupid flu has been with me since dunno when oso..haiz... feeling feverish too..

it's juz the second day of sch...i'm feeling the stress n the tension...so much homework on the 2nd day n somemore today i had training...haiz...it's juz the 2nd day...i noe there's no time to slack n all but it's really so fast n i feel like i'm gonna suffocate anytime! haiz...i really m having n putting alot of confidence in myself telling myself i can do it..haiz..sometimes this is life!! life isn't easy...no one said it would be...if u wan this u fight for it..is tt all abt life?

had training today...hmmm well was kindda rusty wth my skills n all n my shoes were like wet so i had to use my running shoes which were quite big for me...then i dunno y but i juz couldn't play...haiz..then we had like speed traning then i was actually banned frm taking it cos my ankle was hurting but i beg them to let me run one round la..haha then i was sprinting n......i fell...haha was them my right leg was like super numb n pain..haha frm my butt all the way to my ankle it was hurting..haha then every1 started to some n all then had to limp back to rest..haha cos of the wet puddle then i fell...haha then jan oso told me tt she flew cos of the puddle too n she landed on her knee..ahaha the way she show me like matrix sia! hahaha so funny...haha

well finally i think i got all my books..hmm oh well..when i reach home was abt 7 plus then rush to bath n eat n do hw n i was done at 10pm...then my fren juz had to ask me abt SS..n i like DUNNO how to do lor..haiz...no choice go sch copy...haha though it's kindda hard la..haha

n another thing tt i was dammm sad abt today...pple think tt this is a damm proud thing to be off...but i dun think so...my face is like on the cover page of the student companion...how idoitic can tt be...sheesh la...

i juz pray tt tml will be a betta day..

ok...so today wasn't as bad as i thought..n it wasn't as good either..haha doesn't make a diff.!! haha oh well..i was like super tired...i woke up abt 3 times lor..n it was like freezing cold in the morning...haha so i drag myself out of bed though i REALLY HATE to...but i had NO choice..haha

had quite a long tok in the hall lucky it was quite interesting la..haha n yes yes was freezing in the hall as well..haha then went to class...haha now my classroom at the 4th floor!! shit!! haha oh well...hmmm had so many letters to take home n all..then after the tok with miss tan n her expectations had CHINESE!?? wad the! haha as usual no one listen to tt chinese teacher...dun really like him..hmmm...all my other teachers r the same except lit!! hehe...ok then had RECESS!! haha best time of the day? lol...the food sucks though..lol

went back class abit late miss tan was upset so scolded us..haha wad a day!! haha oh well then ya vote for class comitte...Miss Tan nominated some pple herselve la for class chairperson..hmm n i was in it...i tell u i M SOOO LUCKY tt i'm not tt...cos it's gonna be dammm stressful for me...then miss tan oso voted me for discipline...n as usual i SO LUCKY AGaiN i'm not tt..haha in th end was in sports com. with my 2 good frens!! haha yay!! haha then had MAtHS...haha she started lessons straight away...haha ok i understand wad she's toking abt!! yay!!

ok after sch went simpang bedok to eat...yay! prata! haha then mummy fetch me to sch to check for my books..then went pasir ris..then ya...the outcome is.....

I STILL CAN'T BLOODY HELL FIND MY BOOKS!! MY MATHS 4A..MY BIO N PHYSICS TB...HOW DEAD M I...SUPER DEAD!!!I DAMM SCARED!!WAD A WAY TO START SCH!!HAiZ!

tml got training!! woot! i heard tournament is in early feb! jia you becky!! hahahahaha

wow! 12 liaoz...i'm suppose to be slping soon...tml need to wake up early for church...hmm oh wells..

today was great...praise n worship was great!hehs...nothing much ba...spent almost the whole day in church...haha oh well..was feeling abit tired though...had a good tok with rach n ky n jia ning... =)

Goals for 2005:

top 10 in class!!

get closer to my straight A's

get to sec 5 next year

study harder

FOCUS on the rite things at the rite time

be more self-dicipline

save money

pray more

love???

tt shld be it...hehe...as for my TENNIS...i juz wan to get into sch team n play doubles with yihui...*crosses fingers* n i wan the tennis team to be more untied n not wad senior junior thingy...yup yup...

ok tt's abt it bah...haha tml got chinese tution..-DREADS- oh well shall end here..i'm praying n hoping hard tt all this goals will be fulfilled...

pple continue to keep the happiness in u...wad's past is past dun dwell in it...SMILES!!!!! love u all out there!! thanks for making my life so beautiful!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPLE!!

haha yesterday was definitely a long long day...hahaha..well woke up at 10.30pm then bath then made my way dw with mel to pasir ris make ez link card...haha like FINALLY! haha then waited for pb at tanah merah then went dw ALL the way to woodlands...haha hang around in causway point eat n watch tv...hahahaha...then went bro.'s hse...haha dw stairs met this kids which were super friendly! haha then they were playing the sparkling thingy so i was like i wan to play oso!! haha then the boy u wan to play arh? ok nah! haha then he pass me the thing...haha wadeva u call it...haha then they ask me play badminton with them so play lor...hah then wait until frad. call again...haha then later i ask them where's the block n all then they show us the way...haha damm nice!!!!! hahaha n the small boy is like p4 but he looks P1!!! haha wow!!! haha oh well..haha

then brother damm nice send me dw cos mel n pb busy playing com. haha i felt super bad cos raining then he bai car then make him come dw with me..hehs...oh well...then finally got a cab...haha

wah the first thing i enter the cab..tell uncle where to go...then uncle was like in chinese btw...WAH so touching arh leg injuried still send u dw n all..haha then he ask tt one ur boyfren arh? DIAOZ!!!! i wanted to faint..haha then i hurry say no no my brother..haha then he kept goin on n on abt how to choose boyfren n all la..haha like for 20 mins...then he kept repeating the same things like wad ur boyfren must like really take care of u then noe how to solve his own family problems n noe how to solve my family problems...hahahaha super funny!!! haha then later he ask me if i got go countdw then i was like ya at my fren's hse n all..haha super crap la..haha my chinese very limited so din really tok much...haha the he say wad countdw once a year hav must go shout shout realive stress!then he bring his whole family go n all lor... hahahaha so funny..haha then the best part i lost my way to my fren's hse so my fren had to tok to the cab uncle..ahaha then ya lor the cab fare was abt 20 bah...LUCKY brother lend me money!! haha HENG!! ahaha

oh well then we started the fire n all..haha n i had fun eating n BBQING!!! i tell u arh...i never knew bbqing can be TT FUN!!! hahaha...next time i will sit in front of the fire n do the bbqing!! haha the rest of the day was ok bah...haha nothing exciting...countdw wasn't much kick but oh well!! haha had fun msging pple...hehehe...

alright end of grandmama story!! CIAOZ!! long day later too!!