blah blah blah!! tml's maths paper 2...n i juz finish a movie marathon with my cuz..haha initial D n The Pacifier...haha ok back to tml...gonna give it my best for the paper n i'm gonna get a full score! possible ok!! haha full of confidence but dun wanna be over confident...u noe sometimes...when ur hope r raised so high u could juz drop hard n i mean really hard on the floor..oh well shall juz pray..

went to church...felt cheery in the morning..haha was really touch by the song 'be thou my vision' well i thought tt it seriously had alot of meaning to me..the speaker was sister peck hong..she's really an annoited speaker..i must say the one thing tt really got me stuck was her first question..The thing i prize most in my life? think abt it...oh well then went for CM the kids were great..energetic as ever so rehers with them the song Absolutely Nothing..haha so happy to see them dance..becos it was the most wonderful sight ever..i'm sure God was pleased..hehs..

oh well isaac kor is goin Army soon!! sobs!! i'm gonna miss him so so so so so so very very very much!!! ahhhhh...haha isaac kor!! miss me too k!! hahaha i'll promise to practice my guitar..lol..

ok ciaoz!
cheena: i'm hardworking!!i blogged!haha

Delirious has 5 children!! really? sheesh...he so cute n he looks so young?how can it be..blah...

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY..

prelims this whole week..late nites n all with lots of chicken essence n lots of things to remember..all the juice is like flowing out...sheesh..wadif my heart work goes dw the drain!! -smack my own head- dun think nonsense becks!! blah! ok ya prelims this whole week..i think i said tt again..well ya exams stress...late nites..n worst!! EYE -BAGS! how great is tt...haiz..oh well the papers were alright but now all i can do is pray for favour like wad mummy says..

well juz yesterday caught some virus..had flu n soar throat..next day had to go for accts paper 2..had a headache when i woke up but had to stay positive n said"I CAN DO THIS" i had to do it... i had to pass this..cos it was my hope to pull me up for accts paper 1..i noe it wasn't gonna be easy so i prayed cos with my dear God nothing is ever impossible! AMEN! i felt peace a peace tt i can never describe..when i saw the paper i must admit it was a big time disaster for me but the funny thing was at the end of the paper i felt sad yes..cos i noe wad the outcome will be already but i still really thank God for giving me tt peace of mind..=)

so now i'm having a fever, soar throat n flu...got 2 whole days to recover..alrights..the sick is gonna slp..n be a pig...

it's juz 2 days before prelims n i feel relax? is it good? hmm i doubt so...like wad Mr Cheena said i got no sense of urgency! feeling complacent recently...i think i haven't even been studyin the whole week!! sheesh!! the thought of prelims makes me sick manx! it's like we r taking 3 major exams this whole year...mid-years,prelims and our N's...POK!!! sick sick sick...haven't had a lot of hw too...sheesh manx..this sucks seriously!

I WANT TO GO OVERSEAS TO STUDY!!

i passed my chinese prelims 51.5...tt's not good..cos i expected higher...my CL paper one especially the compo...i failed really badly...but wad the hell ok! i din write out of point n he said i did!! damm! nvm...prelims juz pass..N's must score...ok...now i'm started to feel the stress?

need to go church soon..haven't bath...blah..been studying bio n physics since 11.30am...did anything get into my brain?? i think so..arggg..high expectations for myself especially for science...sheesh..k signing off here!

ciaoz pple!

Pray for me!!

i wan A's!!

haha

been online like for 1 and a half hours when i'm suppose to be studying SS!!! hahaha oh well CL prelims was a total screw up expecially paper 2...haha nvm..i did my best i guess..=)

last nite before i slpt i thought of this person..
i met him 11 months ago coming 1 year next month... he was a great guy to be with...his crapping skills n at the same time caring sight of him made me really wonder how does he do it...very fun loving person do be with n whenever he was there he brought many many laughter to the pple around him..his "slogan" is -smile- OR smile cos the world is in need of smiles which i very much appreciated it(i think some of u might noe who i'm toking abt already haha)...he was very very much like a small kid tt must be taken care n can be really stubborn at times, but tt's the way he was...at times he was the macture 'kid' haha n at times the sentimental guy...he was always willing to listen to all my nonsense n he was a busy guy(so was i but i'm a girl!)...he knew his passion AND there was one thing i will neva forget abt him is tt he can really make u smile when u're sad or feeling helpless but i couldn't do the same to him..we had our little arguements but deep inside we cherished each other...things happen..it juz took one very important thing n we didn't contact each other..there was tears for me..as for him i dunno...i regreted stuff but i couldn't do much...

Looking back now, all i can say now is i had never really felt so loved by someone tt isn't related to me by blood before! so u're the first n i feel so blessed to hav someone like u! THANK YOU for giving me so much joy n laughter n love for tt period of time..Take care! n same words to you SMILE!
*you noe who you are~

tt's was wad was in my hrt the whole nite!

another week has gone...went church felt energized then went dim sum dollies felt tired...went to meet pw,bm n their fren played pool n i sucked...went home ate dinner did massage for piu n started stoning...

i've been thinking...

too many things to put it into words..

-the end-

exactly 1 year after Mr Quah's death...i'm moving on with life but there r many many memories of him in my mind...the times he scold, the times he made us laughed, the times he cared abt us...he may appear unfeeling n all but actually he cared...like tt time when i had like 2 blisters on my leg n i could not walk he told me to go home n soak it in hot water...n i was like wow!

went to the cremitorian where his ashes were when i saw it tears juz started to flow..memories started to flash...i wanted to remain strong in front of my juniors but i couldn't...i was too weak for tt...tears juz flow dw n dw n dw...i couldn't stop...especially when they were toking to him it made me cry more..haiz...i can't be strong abt tt...i juz hope tt he's happy in heaven with God...